Have I Ever Mentioned...?

MY BEST FRIEND!

Have I ever mentioned how blessed I am? Have I ever mentioned how grateful I am for all the wonderful friends, new and old, that have? Have I ever mentioned that I would be completely lost without my friends? Here are some of the those special people (sorry if I missed you!) I love you all!! You all mean the world to me and hold a special place in my heart! xoxo

Friend from the WOMB!

Neighb! been there for me so much!My "Big Sis" who gets me into trouble!

Slops and Frump...BEST OF FRIENDS!

Three Beautiful Women Who I Look Up To!

Giggle, Giggle Friend since Kindergarten!

My ROCKS at work!

$uga Mama :)

Beer and Wings Ladies

Baddest Bitches You'll Meet!

Starbucks Date 4-Life!

"Cause You Had A Bad Day"

"You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

They tell me your lifes been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on"

I had a bad day. Do you ever have those days where it suddenly goes to shit, but there is zero explanation for it? Well, that's exactly what my day entailed until about 7:30 this evening. I'm not going to go on and sit here pouring out my feelings and continuing bitching about things that cannot and will not ever change, because in the end it will just be a waste of my time, and everyone else's while I'm at it. Instead I'm just going to go where the wind blows and talk about whatever the h,e, double hockeysticks I want! So HA!

Although I have friends that I could just down right punch in the face for some of the stupid things they do, at the end of the day they are there for me and I'd take a punch in the face for them. Tonight two of my friends, one which I have been friends with "since the womb" aka age 3 and the other is a friend out of convenience but has blossomed (at least I think haha!) into an amazing friendship. One listened to me bitch and vent about things that a) she probably did not give 2 shits about and b) things she knew nothing about but that is neither here nor there. She was there for me. The other friend took me to our spot.....KOHLS and did our usual bitch about life, family, friends, and work. Now that's what I call therapy! :)

Second order of business, I'm making it a JOB to start blogging more. I'm a writer, thru-and-thru, and putting my thoughts and feelings onto paper, or the computer screen helps me to destress and get things of my chest. I was blogging more frequently during the winter, but school and work got the most of me and well, basically blogging was the least of my worries. Now that one of those inconveniences is gone (wooohooo graduation!) I think I'll have a little more time to do this....if I can remember.

Lastly for the night because I'm tired, is my "warning label" on this. This blog, no matter how much I write or don't write is not for anyone's entertainment except mine. Yes, I'm going to share this with my friend on Facebook/Twitter/etc. but that does not mean I'm not going to be opinionated or speak what I feel the truth is. If you don't like what I'm writing, then stop reading it because no one is forcing you to read it. I'll repeat that again: IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I'M SAYING THEN GET OFF MY BLOG. I appreciate other people's opinions, points of view, and advice, but that does not mean that I'm going to change what I say on here. Maybe that makes me a bitch, but oh well. Would not be the first time. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE is entitled to their own opinions, so this will simply be mine and I will always be open to yours, as long as it is done in a decent manner :)

"People do not seem to realize that their opinion of the world is also a confession character." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

changing with time....

Overtime everyone changes. You grow up, you move out of your parents house, you get a job, you make your own family. Not everyone goes in that order, but it's the ideal order in my household.

Currently I'm going thru my "I don't wanna grow up" phase. I have the winter blues. I don't wanna do anything. I wanna sit in the house, with the dogs, and watch television. I can't. I have to get up, go to work, go to class, do laundry, clean, and still maintain a social life. Growing up is inevitable-but it doesn't mean that you have to want to do it. I thought I was envious of the people that could go to school, party it up every night, not worry about a job, and just live THE life. I figured out though that i'm not envious of them (well not completely). It turns out that i'm just starting to fear the change that is about to occur in June(yes, I graduate from Wright State University).

Things are changing all around me. The people I surround myself with is changing, my focus is changing, my friends are changing their lives and it's effecting me more than I ever thought it would. I'm holding so many secrets, so many lies, and so many truths that are not just about me but about my friends and family as well. All of these secrets, lies, and truths are part of my life changing and I'm not sure how much I like it......but I guess it's not my choice right?

I'm finding myself getting into a situation that even I'm not sure of. Something that was suppose to be something new, fun, and carefree has taken a drastic turn and has become something much more....but....it's one of my secrets, one of my truths that I can't share...with anyone.

My life has just gotten a little more complicated, and changed a little bit more but all I can do is smile and take life one day at a time. Life is short. Everything happens for a reason. Thank goodness someone up there knows what's goin on :)

don't let it pass you by...

Life is too short to worry about the stupid shit in life: so live like there's no tomorrow, laugh until your stomach hurts, and love with all your heart because life truely is a blessing

Over the years i've learned to cherish life. I've lost 2 grandmothers, a great-grandmother, an uncle, a friend, and now a person that I found to be an amazing, beautiful, strong woman...Mrs. Pignatiello. My friend Katie, has lost her mother and words cannot even express how devastated I would be, and how impressed I am that her family has been so strong through this. God is definitely on their side and they now have an amazing guardian angel looking down on them and beaming with proudness. RIP Momma P!

These are the moments I cherish, the moments I live for:

• dreams-the ones where my grandmothers visit me :)



• quality time with my momma-in the car, at home, at the grocery, wherever



• weekends spent in Cincy with the wonderful Combs family



• the drive to and from school, radio blasting, singing at the top of my lungs



• lazy Sundays



• family dinners-unfortunately these don't happen as much as when grandma was alive :(



• coffee dates with my friends



• sitting in my pj's, under a blanket while it snows outside



• seeing a Christmas tree lit up



• daddies loving on their little girls



• seeing people be so positive, even when it seems like nothing is going right



• moments with friends



• weeknights where i'm asleep by midnight(it's like heaven!)



• roadtrips

Life is what we make of it. It can be good, bad, positive, negative, fun, boring, crazy, lame but whichever way you make it, make sure it's the right one for you. It's your life. Do what you want, not what others want you to do or what you think you should do. How could that possibly make you happy?

New Start*

*If they don't come after you when you walk away...then keep walking*

I read this quote today on my friend's facebook and this describes my life perfectly. I recently cut ties with someone that meant a lot to me, but they didn't chase me afterwards. I know this is for the best. Everyone is telling me it's for the best. But if it's for the best then why have I cried over this? Why do I just want to pick up the phone and call them? It has been almost a week since I have spoken to this person and you know what? I FEEL GREAT! I'm more confident then ever and am looking forward instead of looking back. My friends are amazing. My family is amazing. MY LIFE IS AMAZING!!

Today I'm gonna sit in my living room. Christmas tree lit. Blinds open-looking at the beauty nature has given us-SNOW! It's cold out. It's sunny out. It's white out. It's beautiful out. Just like you.

wow. 1/3 the way thru....

I'm officially done with Fall quarter 2010, which means I, Corie, have only 2, yes 2!, quarters left before I need to make the tough decision of do the "adult thing" or going to grad school. I've always debated grad school but was never sure what I would go for, but I think i've figured it out! So here are my options for what I could be doing in June 2011. Input is always accepted gratefully :)

option #1: Work
I graduate in June and one of my options is become an adult and start my career. Doing this means I would more than likely pack up, and move to Cincinnati(more than likely) and start my career somewhere down there. Hopefully with a job where I can use my major(communications) and my minor(marketing). Now don't get me wrong I do like this option but I don't know if i'm ready for it...but Adam is down there....:)

option #2: Grad school
I continue what i'm doing now. Going to school and working at Clarks. I would be going to grad school for Counseling. I've had a lot of friends asking for advice from anything to relationships to school and I really enjoy helping them. I would love to do this for a living. This option is pretty ideal except for the fact that...I'm getting tired of Clarks (insert gasp here) I love my job, I love my coworkers, but I've worked there part time for 5 and a half years and I'm getting burnt out on my "high school" job. We'll see....

option #3: COLUMBUS!
Move in with my best friend, Adela, and live in Cbus with her and just work and have some fun at the same time. I could work in my field, or I could work at a pharmacy, save up money, and then go back to school after a year or so. I could also find a job (maybe in a counselors office?) and see if they will pay for me to go to grad school and work for them. I could probably do this anywhere but it would be getting out of lil' Tipp City and moving forward. Dad wants me to take some time off school so I can have a break because I don't know what it's like to have "free" time. So far this option seems like the best bet, but I still have doubts. What if I can find a job? What if I can't get into a grad school near there? Oy vay!

I can't believe I'm at this point in my life where I have to decide on something so major. Wasn't it just yesterday I graduated high school?

In a better place...

For those of you who don't think a pet is part of the family, then you might as well stop reading now.

This morning my mom took my childhood cat to the vet, and came back without her. I knew this was a possibility when she took her. Sarabelle (tiger-striped) had been having troubles breathing and couldn't eat so mom was taking her to the vet to see what could be done, if anything. Turns out she had pneumonia, and had it for awhile. That's why she couldn't breathe or eat and why for the past couple months she's been "coughing." She also had kidney failure, which like any older animal is a possibility and had lost 5 pounds in the past year and weighed only 5 pounds. Sarabelle was a stray kitten in our alley that during the winter many, many, many years ago coaxed inside and she's been ours ever since. She was a bitch. She hated people, but she always let you pet her once and every once in awhile would lay with you. She also had a saggy belly from when she was spayed. We joke that she needed to have a tummy tuck or lipo because it swayed back and forth as she walked. I've never had to say goodbye to a childhood pet, and man was it hard. She's not suffereing anymore though, which ultimately is all that matters. I'll miss her but it's part of growing up. You lose things you love, but with every loss, you'll gain something new whether it's a lesson or a kitten. Ha! It's too soon for a new cat to replace her but don't be fooled-i checked the pounds website this afternoon :) My babygirl Sarabelle is now buried out in the backyard, with my great-grandma's cat. I was outside with dad while he dug the whole(he was more of a mess than me) and the neighborhood cat, Bozzle, sat out there with us like he was paying his condolences or something. Sam hasn't noticed that Sara isn't around, but give it time and he'll realize there isn't anything to pick on.

Man that felt good to get off my chest :)

Miss and love you Sarabelle!