Overtime everyone changes. You grow up, you move out of your parents house, you get a job, you make your own family. Not everyone goes in that order, but it's the ideal order in my household.
Currently I'm going thru my "I don't wanna grow up" phase. I have the winter blues. I don't wanna do anything. I wanna sit in the house, with the dogs, and watch television. I can't. I have to get up, go to work, go to class, do laundry, clean, and still maintain a social life. Growing up is inevitable-but it doesn't mean that you have to want to do it. I thought I was envious of the people that could go to school, party it up every night, not worry about a job, and just live THE life. I figured out though that i'm not envious of them (well not completely). It turns out that i'm just starting to fear the change that is about to occur in June(yes, I graduate from Wright State University).
Things are changing all around me. The people I surround myself with is changing, my focus is changing, my friends are changing their lives and it's effecting me more than I ever thought it would. I'm holding so many secrets, so many lies, and so many truths that are not just about me but about my friends and family as well. All of these secrets, lies, and truths are part of my life changing and I'm not sure how much I like it......but I guess it's not my choice right?
I'm finding myself getting into a situation that even I'm not sure of. Something that was suppose to be something new, fun, and carefree has taken a drastic turn and has become something much more....but....it's one of my secrets, one of my truths that I can't share...with anyone.
My life has just gotten a little more complicated, and changed a little bit more but all I can do is smile and take life one day at a time. Life is short. Everything happens for a reason. Thank goodness someone up there knows what's goin on :)
