Have I Ever Mentioned...?

MY BEST FRIEND!

Have I ever mentioned how blessed I am? Have I ever mentioned how grateful I am for all the wonderful friends, new and old, that have? Have I ever mentioned that I would be completely lost without my friends? Here are some of the those special people (sorry if I missed you!) I love you all!! You all mean the world to me and hold a special place in my heart! xoxo

Friend from the WOMB!

Neighb! been there for me so much!My "Big Sis" who gets me into trouble!

Slops and Frump...BEST OF FRIENDS!

Three Beautiful Women Who I Look Up To!

Giggle, Giggle Friend since Kindergarten!

My ROCKS at work!

$uga Mama :)

Beer and Wings Ladies

Baddest Bitches You'll Meet!

Starbucks Date 4-Life!

"Cause You Had A Bad Day"

"You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

They tell me your lifes been way off line

You're falling to pieces everytime

And I don't need no carryin' on"

I had a bad day. Do you ever have those days where it suddenly goes to shit, but there is zero explanation for it? Well, that's exactly what my day entailed until about 7:30 this evening. I'm not going to go on and sit here pouring out my feelings and continuing bitching about things that cannot and will not ever change, because in the end it will just be a waste of my time, and everyone else's while I'm at it. Instead I'm just going to go where the wind blows and talk about whatever the h,e, double hockeysticks I want! So HA!

Although I have friends that I could just down right punch in the face for some of the stupid things they do, at the end of the day they are there for me and I'd take a punch in the face for them. Tonight two of my friends, one which I have been friends with "since the womb" aka age 3 and the other is a friend out of convenience but has blossomed (at least I think haha!) into an amazing friendship. One listened to me bitch and vent about things that a) she probably did not give 2 shits about and b) things she knew nothing about but that is neither here nor there. She was there for me. The other friend took me to our spot.....KOHLS and did our usual bitch about life, family, friends, and work. Now that's what I call therapy! :)

Second order of business, I'm making it a JOB to start blogging more. I'm a writer, thru-and-thru, and putting my thoughts and feelings onto paper, or the computer screen helps me to destress and get things of my chest. I was blogging more frequently during the winter, but school and work got the most of me and well, basically blogging was the least of my worries. Now that one of those inconveniences is gone (wooohooo graduation!) I think I'll have a little more time to do this....if I can remember.

Lastly for the night because I'm tired, is my "warning label" on this. This blog, no matter how much I write or don't write is not for anyone's entertainment except mine. Yes, I'm going to share this with my friend on Facebook/Twitter/etc. but that does not mean I'm not going to be opinionated or speak what I feel the truth is. If you don't like what I'm writing, then stop reading it because no one is forcing you to read it. I'll repeat that again: IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I'M SAYING THEN GET OFF MY BLOG. I appreciate other people's opinions, points of view, and advice, but that does not mean that I'm going to change what I say on here. Maybe that makes me a bitch, but oh well. Would not be the first time. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE is entitled to their own opinions, so this will simply be mine and I will always be open to yours, as long as it is done in a decent manner :)

"People do not seem to realize that their opinion of the world is also a confession character." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

changing with time....

Overtime everyone changes. You grow up, you move out of your parents house, you get a job, you make your own family. Not everyone goes in that order, but it's the ideal order in my household.

Currently I'm going thru my "I don't wanna grow up" phase. I have the winter blues. I don't wanna do anything. I wanna sit in the house, with the dogs, and watch television. I can't. I have to get up, go to work, go to class, do laundry, clean, and still maintain a social life. Growing up is inevitable-but it doesn't mean that you have to want to do it. I thought I was envious of the people that could go to school, party it up every night, not worry about a job, and just live THE life. I figured out though that i'm not envious of them (well not completely). It turns out that i'm just starting to fear the change that is about to occur in June(yes, I graduate from Wright State University).

Things are changing all around me. The people I surround myself with is changing, my focus is changing, my friends are changing their lives and it's effecting me more than I ever thought it would. I'm holding so many secrets, so many lies, and so many truths that are not just about me but about my friends and family as well. All of these secrets, lies, and truths are part of my life changing and I'm not sure how much I like it......but I guess it's not my choice right?

I'm finding myself getting into a situation that even I'm not sure of. Something that was suppose to be something new, fun, and carefree has taken a drastic turn and has become something much more....but....it's one of my secrets, one of my truths that I can't share...with anyone.

My life has just gotten a little more complicated, and changed a little bit more but all I can do is smile and take life one day at a time. Life is short. Everything happens for a reason. Thank goodness someone up there knows what's goin on :)