wow. 1/3 the way thru....

I'm officially done with Fall quarter 2010, which means I, Corie, have only 2, yes 2!, quarters left before I need to make the tough decision of do the "adult thing" or going to grad school. I've always debated grad school but was never sure what I would go for, but I think i've figured it out! So here are my options for what I could be doing in June 2011. Input is always accepted gratefully :)

option #1: Work
I graduate in June and one of my options is become an adult and start my career. Doing this means I would more than likely pack up, and move to Cincinnati(more than likely) and start my career somewhere down there. Hopefully with a job where I can use my major(communications) and my minor(marketing). Now don't get me wrong I do like this option but I don't know if i'm ready for it...but Adam is down there....:)

option #2: Grad school
I continue what i'm doing now. Going to school and working at Clarks. I would be going to grad school for Counseling. I've had a lot of friends asking for advice from anything to relationships to school and I really enjoy helping them. I would love to do this for a living. This option is pretty ideal except for the fact that...I'm getting tired of Clarks (insert gasp here) I love my job, I love my coworkers, but I've worked there part time for 5 and a half years and I'm getting burnt out on my "high school" job. We'll see....

option #3: COLUMBUS!
Move in with my best friend, Adela, and live in Cbus with her and just work and have some fun at the same time. I could work in my field, or I could work at a pharmacy, save up money, and then go back to school after a year or so. I could also find a job (maybe in a counselors office?) and see if they will pay for me to go to grad school and work for them. I could probably do this anywhere but it would be getting out of lil' Tipp City and moving forward. Dad wants me to take some time off school so I can have a break because I don't know what it's like to have "free" time. So far this option seems like the best bet, but I still have doubts. What if I can find a job? What if I can't get into a grad school near there? Oy vay!

I can't believe I'm at this point in my life where I have to decide on something so major. Wasn't it just yesterday I graduated high school?

In a better place...

For those of you who don't think a pet is part of the family, then you might as well stop reading now.

This morning my mom took my childhood cat to the vet, and came back without her. I knew this was a possibility when she took her. Sarabelle (tiger-striped) had been having troubles breathing and couldn't eat so mom was taking her to the vet to see what could be done, if anything. Turns out she had pneumonia, and had it for awhile. That's why she couldn't breathe or eat and why for the past couple months she's been "coughing." She also had kidney failure, which like any older animal is a possibility and had lost 5 pounds in the past year and weighed only 5 pounds. Sarabelle was a stray kitten in our alley that during the winter many, many, many years ago coaxed inside and she's been ours ever since. She was a bitch. She hated people, but she always let you pet her once and every once in awhile would lay with you. She also had a saggy belly from when she was spayed. We joke that she needed to have a tummy tuck or lipo because it swayed back and forth as she walked. I've never had to say goodbye to a childhood pet, and man was it hard. She's not suffereing anymore though, which ultimately is all that matters. I'll miss her but it's part of growing up. You lose things you love, but with every loss, you'll gain something new whether it's a lesson or a kitten. Ha! It's too soon for a new cat to replace her but don't be fooled-i checked the pounds website this afternoon :) My babygirl Sarabelle is now buried out in the backyard, with my great-grandma's cat. I was outside with dad while he dug the whole(he was more of a mess than me) and the neighborhood cat, Bozzle, sat out there with us like he was paying his condolences or something. Sam hasn't noticed that Sara isn't around, but give it time and he'll realize there isn't anything to pick on.

Man that felt good to get off my chest :)

Miss and love you Sarabelle!

Tears of Stress

It is the end of the quarter. THANK GOD. I have finals and projects due between now and next wednesday and my stress level has officially reached an all time high. My neck is stiff, my shoulders, back and head hurt. All because of stress. I keep bursting into tears over the stupid stuff because i've reached my limit. Yes, I do realize that EVERY college student goes thru this and you might be thinking woe is me, but I had to bitch about it for a minute!

Once again my group of friends that I talk to on a daily basis and hang out with on the weekends is changing. This happens often to me, but I can honestly say that I am legitimately happy with who I have been surrounding myself with. I have had 2 friends pop back up into my life again and it's absolutely wonderful. One is a friend that I have had since I was in Kindergarten. They moved in middle school and we slowly drifted apart, but for some reason I can't remember, we began talking again and now I see her on a weekly basis and I LOVE IT! I have one of my best friends back and it feels like nothing ever changed. :) My other friend that has popped back into my life never really left but was going thru some rough stuff and began to isolate herself. She suffers from depression, as do I, yes, I Corie Marko suffer from depression. I take medication for it and have for over a year now. I'm not ashamed of it and I don't feel as though it's something that anyone should be ashamed of. My friend that suffers from it went off her medication because she thought she was ready but it turned out not what she thought it would be. I'm beyond happy that I was able to be there for her, and knew exactly what she was going thru and was able to help her as much as possible. I'm so glad that she is back and hopefully for good :)

My boyfriend. Oy Vay! He is something else....There are days I want to strangle him, and have broken up with him...only to text him 2 seconds later and say I didn't mean it. This distance (about an hour) is a lot harder to deal with then I ever thought possible. We have opposite schedules and it is nearly impossible to make our schedules work together. However we are both determined to make this work. We want this to work. It feels right. I get to see him tomorrow :)

It's almost 1am and I have to get up at 8am....probably should head to bed. Although I know I'll toss and turn and won't sleep much because I'll be thinking of the papers and finals that I should be doing instead of sleeping.......STORY.OF.MY.LIFE.