It is the end of the quarter. THANK GOD. I have finals and projects due between now and next wednesday and my stress level has officially reached an all time high. My neck is stiff, my shoulders, back and head hurt. All because of stress. I keep bursting into tears over the stupid stuff because i've reached my limit. Yes, I do realize that EVERY college student goes thru this and you might be thinking woe is me, but I had to bitch about it for a minute!
Once again my group of friends that I talk to on a daily basis and hang out with on the weekends is changing. This happens often to me, but I can honestly say that I am legitimately happy with who I have been surrounding myself with. I have had 2 friends pop back up into my life again and it's absolutely wonderful. One is a friend that I have had since I was in Kindergarten. They moved in middle school and we slowly drifted apart, but for some reason I can't remember, we began talking again and now I see her on a weekly basis and I LOVE IT! I have one of my best friends back and it feels like nothing ever changed. :) My other friend that has popped back into my life never really left but was going thru some rough stuff and began to isolate herself. She suffers from depression, as do I, yes, I Corie Marko suffer from depression. I take medication for it and have for over a year now. I'm not ashamed of it and I don't feel as though it's something that anyone should be ashamed of. My friend that suffers from it went off her medication because she thought she was ready but it turned out not what she thought it would be. I'm beyond happy that I was able to be there for her, and knew exactly what she was going thru and was able to help her as much as possible. I'm so glad that she is back and hopefully for good :)
My boyfriend. Oy Vay! He is something else....There are days I want to strangle him, and have broken up with him...only to text him 2 seconds later and say I didn't mean it. This distance (about an hour) is a lot harder to deal with then I ever thought possible. We have opposite schedules and it is nearly impossible to make our schedules work together. However we are both determined to make this work. We want this to work. It feels right. I get to see him tomorrow :)
It's almost 1am and I have to get up at 8am....probably should head to bed. Although I know I'll toss and turn and won't sleep much because I'll be thinking of the papers and finals that I should be doing instead of sleeping.......STORY.OF.MY.LIFE.
:)
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