life.

theres this guy....and well i kinda like him :) and i feel like i'm in junior high every time he calls me, or texts me. i get a big goofy smile on my face and even my dad notices it. i've known him for awhile and he's became one of my best friends and i honestly can't imagine him not being in my life in the future. lately we've started talking recently about us. and what us is. we've decided that we want to try a relationship. we think it can work. we think we'll be good together. we know everything about each other. he knows what i want to name my kids. i know he shakes his foot when he's falling asleep. HE MAKES ME HAPPY! :)

we haven't had the full relationship talk...we just know we want to try this. i want it to work. he wants it to work. we're gonna have some obstacles in the way but i know we can do this. i've had some friends that think this will never work...and maybe they're right. but then i have the friends that are beyond happy that i have him in my life. thanks guys! :)

dad doesn't like him. he doesn't even know him, but he knows he doesn't like him. mom wants to meet him. she wants him to come stay the night(and sleep on the couch of course!) brother, well he could care less. push comes to shove this guy will always be my friend. he's there for me whenever i need him. he lets me bitch at him just to get it out. he plays psychologist when i need it. he makes me laugh. he makes me cry. he pisses me off. he makes me smile. he makes me feel special.

it's just one more change that is happening in my life right now. i welcome it with open arms. i regret only 1 thing i've done in my life...and i saw that regret tonight. i had mixed emotions about it. part of me was thinking stupid stupid corie. and the other part of me thought you only live once and i took full advantage of what was in front of me and had fun! that living once part of me is what keeps me hopeful and excited about this new change. and i just hope in the end i'm not saying stupid stupid corie, but rather i'm only gonna live once...glad i tried!